The Reality Choice

I'm not God - so why do I try to act like Him sometimes?

I have really enjoyed these last two weeks - both preaching on Life's Healing Choices and leading a couple of life growth groups. The discussion has been open and honest and I believe people are already seeing some changes taking place in their life!

Wanting to lead with integrity I have been wrestling with things in my own life and not just telling everyone else what the book says. I gave up a long time ago trying to change my past and my initial reaction to wanting to control other people was - "I can't control people, they will; do whatever they want." But then I thought deeper and realized that how I react to people who aren't doing what I think they should could be seen as a way of trying to control them. I am trying to watch that more. I do have to say (without trying to defend myself) that I believe my motives for wanting others in the game are pure. It's not as much about how it makes me look, as it is the joy I want them to experience from becoming a servant.

As for controlling my current problems - that's a daily battle. However, if I stay in the Word, commune with God in prayer and stay focused throughout my day, I find it much easier to stay on track. But when I'm hungry, angry, lonely, tired or bored (HALT-B) I'm more prone to sink back into attitudes and behaviors that are counterproductive to my walk.

This week we've been looking more into who God really is, by looking at the character of His Son. I've heard others say that what brings them the most hope is the fact that God is faithful, forgiving, loves unconditionally, and while we were yet sinners - He died for us.

There is so much more to consider, but the promise of freedom from my hurts, hang-ups and habits propel me forward. I hope you are on the journey with me!

Til next time,

Jeff